My Journey…My Awakening!
Finding FREEDOM by following my TRUE NORTH
Authentic. Fearless. Amazing. These are essential words in my everyday vocab, but I didn’t always feel this way.
Truth is, I had a difficult time squashing the burning pangs in my solar plexus (often times on a daily basis) and waking me up at night. On the outside I had it all. Although, inside I was often all twisted up like a pretzel and experienced an underlying feeling of sadness and entrapment.
Work was always first. Other people’s opinions often defined me. Self-imposed expectations and judgments structured my time, my priorities and even my sense of self-worth.
Although I was extremely successful and highly respected, I often found myself chasing something that was never quite fulfilling. No matter how many hours I worked (or how many frequent flyer miles I racked up), I always pushed to do more… and mostly felt stressed, exhausted and unsatisfied.
Until one day I WOKE UP!
I craved FREEDOM—from all of the negative thoughts and emotions that were preventing me from discovering my TRUE NORTH and LIVING ON PURPOSE.
Through self-discovery – peeling back the layers – I stopped hiding, stopped trying to “keep up with the Joneses” and quit imposing arbitrary and extremely high expectations of what happiness is “supposed to look like.” I started asking myself the same question again and again:
What do I really want out of my life?
Such an intense moment of personal change almost always has a catalyst. For me, it was a slow road – but it began in my late 20s, with the loss of my beautiful and extraordinary mother Suzanne. She was my best friend, my biggest cheerleader and an overall kick-ass life inspiration.
My heart was shattered into a billion pieces. To avoid the pain, I threw myself into my career – and used that urgency to distract me from what I was really feeling. I’m sure you can relate; sometimes it’s easier to stay busy than it is to really face how you feel.
With time, I learned that it will always come back to bite you. For me, that day came at 36. I felt stuck. I felt like I was under water. I knew there was more to life. I was ready for CHANGE.
In that moment, I realized something critical: that I held all the cards. That it was up to me to create my own path and be true to it. Happiness was my decision and no one else’s, from work to love to friendship. I was never stuck and FREEDOM was in reach…
It was in my power to make that change.
I always gave love and compassion and took care of everyone around me since a very young age. It felt “selfish” to take care of myself. Self-love was a strange concept for me then; I’m elated to say it’s not anymore!
Back in 2012, I set out on a wild journey… and moved from the East Coast to the West with my adorable puggle, Lola P. Some people thought I was having an early “mid-life crisis” and I had to travel to the other side of the country to “find myself.”
I wasn’t (I repeat) I was not running from anything; I was running toward something… and that something was and IS ME. And, this journey was my “mid-life AWAKENING”! And, that awakening is my greatest gift.
It’s been a tremendous transformation: a reconnection with nature, a reimagining of my career, a continuation of a constant search for self, soul and satisfaction. I worked really hard to change my mindset and perspective so I can live a “pang free” life.
I can honestly say that I finally have it all— the love of my life by my side, two fur babies, the career that catapults me out of bed each morning, and a network of amazing friends and family surrounding me.
Although it was in fact scary flying into the unknown back in 2012, I am so grateful that I pushed through the fear and took that leap! And best of all, I uncovered my greatest gift— to motivate and inspire you to create your own FREEDOM!